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One of my friend viewed my blog "Permata Nusantara" yesterday...and he told me that why everything look sad...it seems like the person who own the blog is not happy... i then told him that i will cheer up "Permata Nusantara" later on...but he said...

"dont cheer ur blog...
but cheer up yourselft first..."

Well...from many of my friends...only him noticed it....(eheh..at least)


Happy blogging to all...owh..critical homesick...wanted to go back home..but only can be in my dream during nite sleep....eheh..lets cheer up yourself...with anything dat can make u happy...nk watch movie at the cinema...but all friens are busy will their own agenda..inclusive the kursus kahwin on this weekend...loh..im not ready for that..later on lah...thus...stay at U4...doing my PSM....

Selamat Berbuka Puasa...

Hari ni ntah kenapa kawan2 aku teringin nk makan steambot...so..oleh kerana dekat setahun lebih gak la kitorang xwat steambot mcm dulu..so we all decided nk bwat makan2..lagi pun ada yg berpuasa..lepas kelas inovasi..kitorang gi giant beli bahan2 mentah...tp diorang yg pilih bahan2 tu..sebab aku dah hilang leka cari majalah kt U mall tu..eheh...so....ini lah antara bahan2 yang dah diorang pakat2 beli...cukup la untuk 6 orang makan..itu pun berlebih...heh..



Aku cite sket la cara nk menyediakan kuah atau sup steambot nie..mula2 hiris bawang merah, bawang putih dan cili padi..didihkan air dan masukkan bahan2 yg dah dihiris tadi beserta dgn 2 ketul kiub tomyam..bubuh garam secukup rasa...kemudian..bila da berkumpul ngan kawan2...masukkan je la bahan2 steambot yg da dibeli td ke dalam kuah steambot tu.....tp before tu basuh la dulu bahan2 tu...Akhirnya..ini lah rupa steambot yang kitorang bwat..bertemapt kt U4 Kolej Perdana...eheh..aku tolong amik gambar je sebenarnye...well...selamat mencuba..

Menanti Ombak di Sisiran...

Kau menyendiri....
Menyelami lautan sanubari mu sendiri...
Ahh..terasa deras dipukul ombak rindu..
Tegar menanti...
bilakah saat ombak rindu bertemu sisiran pantai..

Kau kunci dasar hatimu...
Tak sedikit pun kau mencuba..
Mencuba layari ombak rindu ke tepian...
Kau biarkan rindu karam di dasar jiwamu..

Dan aku....
aku umpama pepasir sisiran pantai...
Setia menunggu sang ombak...
Membawa rindu yang kau karamkan di dasar jiwa mu....

-Sang Bayu 29 julai 2008-

Sad story in life....

As dr. dzul told us to design an equipment for handicap or OKU(org kurang upaya)for the major project, so i made some research on existing equipments...i noticed that some of existing products for person who get physical impact may also use by OKU... and thus i already decided to design an orthotic equipment specialize for hand...i then went to meet dr dzul to discuss with him about it...but he said to me a hand orthotic is only for discover any internal injury and may not use for permanent OKU...thus i have to change to another product..i was quite frust as i am really interested on orthotic equipments...I am actually wanted to do the research of my major project concuerently with my undergraduate project (UGP)..thus i have to confirm the product that i wish to design for ID major project so that i can confirm my UGP title as well.. As dr dzul did not agree with my idea...i then made another research and decided to design a walker for disabled OKU...and thus. my UGP title is "To do Research and Design an equipment for disabled-walker".... But unfortunately..after i confirm the UGP title with the faculty yesterday, Dr dzul suddenly change the brief of major project today...The OKU equipment change to "equipment for special needs"...it means that a hand orthotic can be design for this major projects...i was really2 frust and disappointed....why dont him just make everything clear before..this project will take 2 semesters of duration...at least i can design something that i really interested to...but it was already too late....i just cant do anything except just proceed with my ID major project and my UGP with the title that i already confirmed with the faculty....to design a walker for disabled....huh...what a sad story in my life....i just dont want to think about hand orthotic anymore..it make me really hurt...

owh god....help me to fall in love with all the things that i am going to do......amin..

Sang Bayu...

Sesekali wajahku menoleh ke arah beranda rumah...langit masih pucat kebiruan...mencurahkan hujan yang sesekali meniupkan hembusan bayu menghempas kedinginan pada tubuhku...aku masih lagi meneruskan kerja.. di hadapan komputer pada kedudukan yang agak selesa...namun tiupan sang bayu yang semakin manja membelai sisiran rambutku menggamit aku bangkit meninggalkan seketika ruang kerja..lantas kaki menuju ke beranda..menikmati suasana petang yang segar..aku berdiri..melihat jauh ke arah lebuh raya sri putri...hembusan bayu sekali lagi menyapa...membawa hati dan perasaan ku pergi bersamanya...terkenangkan ayah bonda di kampung halaman...ingin saja aku jadi seperti sang bayu...bebas bermain di segenap penjuru dunia...cubaku pejamkan mata..membayangkan sang bayu membawa perasaan dan hati ku ke pangkuan keluarga....hanya kerinduan yang menemani diriku saat itu...sang bayu masih belum puas menyapa..sekali lagi meniup secicip kenangan luka antara dua manusia...ke mana perginya janji yang masih belum dikota..aku mendongak ke dada langit yang semakin pucat...harapan melihat sang pelangi semakin pudar...seolah-olah menggambarkan perasaan ku saat itu...

sang bayu..sampaikan salam rinduku buat mereka...aku kan pulang membawa berita..mengukir seribu makna...

Mental Load.....

Everything seems like went wrong lately...my mind full of the things that need to be settle in this 2weeks...sometimes i am quite blurr..."what im doing hah...???" mix up and confuse are normal thing in my life...and at this moment..i feel sick thinking of the title of my undergraduate project and also for my Major design project for this final year..and i ever think of to get a motivation session somewhere...but when i thimk about it over and over again...why dont just i pray to god...to help me showing to the right path...and thats the best way to motivate myself....

I began to feel stress...owh..thats not good for my health...with only thingking of my major project for this semester already make me got headache ...with the theme of equipment for handicap, my mind pictures everything about many products for handicap...owh..overload already...mental load and mental strees.....i better finish my Industrial Training Report before anything goes wrong...

Finally...

Today will be my last day practical at Acicc...task 12 was completed yesterday at 8pm with a mock up..but still not present yet to the studio head, Abg JAt..he went out to meet client...owh my god..he still not sign my log book for 4 weeks...(i put my log book on his table...after the next week i took it back...and then i put it back again..and today i took it again...but his signature was still empty..)...he was really busy lately..well, as all the tasks were completed,i am free today..but Kak Siti went out and kak Ina took MC..thus...i have to answer all the calls..being a receptionist.."ACICC Malaysia,good morning,may i help u?"..(eheh..)

I just cant believe dat 10 weeks at ACICC will be over just in a few hours later...12 tasks given still not make me satisfied with my artworks...but honestly..12 tasks that already done taught me a lot in grpahic design that i never got a chance to learn before.

I am doing industrial design course at UTM currently, quite a few of my friends asked me..why i choosed advertising & graphic company for my industrial training..its a different field..but for me, i have my own reason..let le clarify...

I dont have the talent in doing panels for my project presentantion..as at UTM, we never been teach how to use adobe photoshop,illustrator & indesign softwares..all of the softwares are explored by myself... even sometimes i used the softwore incorrectly...the first thing that if u want to attract people to see ur project work is by showing great visual presentation...the flow of the contents..how u arrange and visualise it in ur panels's projects...but i dont have such that talent...thats why im here...to learn & improve my visual presentation..not only for my projects presentation..but also for my future career...Abg Jat many times said to me..."it all depends on u,grab everything here,learn whatever it takes..apply it on industrial design..." (i wont forget..)...

Well...utm..wait for me..i'll back to settle everything...

Hari Mendatang Yang Kurasakan....

Tatkala rakan-rakan seperjuangan ku telah kembali ke landasan perjalanan ke mercu kejayaan...aku masih bergelar trainee latihan industri..hari-hari mendatang makin membuatkan aku tertekan...sejak seminggu yang lalu..inilah kali pertama aku melayari internet di hotseat studio..if x..broad band kt rumah je la jawapannye....baru sahaja selesai FINAL ARTWORK (FA) untuk task 11 : Packaging Design.....FA is a final stage in design progress before printing...dan FA juga telah membuatkan urat-urat kepala ni pening..(nak gigit kacang pun sakit..isk3)......owh..task 12 kini sedang menanti sentuhan grafik dariku...Job Memo dah pun diterima...ye...saya nak buat la ni encik jr grafik designer...owh..Task 11 pun x submit lg kat Studio Head...ye..saya burn cd skrg...

I am 22...

A couple of days ago..i went back home quite late..around 7pm as my art work haven't finish yet...when i arrived at home...i rang the bell and from outside...i saw eimran and emilyn ran toward the tinted and transparent door..they quickly opened it when they saw me and all of us were smiling to each other...i entered my house and said..."we gonna have a birthday celebration today..who's birthday is it?"...emilyn quickly looked up and said..."happy birthday mak cik & mak su"..
well..dat day,4th of july 2008 was my 22nd birthday...inclusive my twin sister, azirah.we celebrated our birthday at my sister's house..well,it was just a simple celebration with a chocolate cake,kfc,fried nooodles and others..just to make my nephew and nieces happy as they are really excited to celebrate anybody's birthday in my family... (of course kena ada present for them eventhough bukn doirang punye birthday pun..it's a must)...well..dat day make me realized that..."aku masih mempunyai dan di punyai"....my family.."to love & to be loved"...but deep inside my heart...i waited for someone's wish...did he forget the date...or he just wanted to forget all about me...only he and god know....may Allah bless him....